guilt

I do feel guilty every time I decline or ignore my old father calling in doing something righteous and good. I have never enjoy doing those good deeds. I have always feel that I have been force to do all those religious things. I wasn't able to decline them when I was younger but now that I am older, I ignore him. I know all those things are good to do but I just don't like to do them because of force. He never asked me nicely but always using his power as a father to abide him and do those things. I know his intention was good. He wants me to follow his footsteps In the righteous way but my heart was so sore that I sometimes just ignore his feeling.