And just when I thought I felt nothing.... One of my enemy in the past bit me on the calf. I almost felt down ashamed but I rolled to the left and kicked him on the head. I ran like a coward without looking back. I'm not ready with this kind of trouble yet.
Thursday, January 31, 2013
I did another crime. Just a few minutes ago. This time it felt different. There was no pleasure while doing it and no remorse after. I felt nothing. Hollow.
I need to feel something. I am nothing now. I don't hate and I don't love.
Faith. I need to search for that 'faith' human talks about. I need and want something to believe in. I want to walk in the path my father took.
Thursday, January 24, 2013
What am I suppose to do when I don't agree with the kingdom I serve?
Should I wage war againts the King or should I hide in the bushes and strike full blow when I have the chance?
I can't rebel just yet, I still have interest in what the kingdom can offer yet in the same time it sicken me to be the ally of all the cruelty to the subject of the kingdom.
Thursday, January 10, 2013
Tuesday, January 08, 2013
Knowlwdge is very important. I always study deeply on something beneficial to me at the time of its usage and I'm proud to say I'm a fast learner too... But that knowledge will only be contained at that particular time when I need it and I'll disregard that knowledge when I'm done with the thing. When I need to use that knowledge again I always forget about it and re-learn it again... Lived too long to remember everything... That's why I made my new resolution to write everything important I did so that I don't need to remember them. My mind would be at peace without all those thing in my mind... Haha