wish upon a sleep

Sometimes I wish that I would wake up from sleep with amnesia. I don't remember all my past sins and mistakes. I would be worry free. I could start my life again.

eaten away by umformidable enemy....

Time could be monstrous and eat you away of your beauty from inside and outside. 

I felt changed after years of abusing myself with load of works, bad habits and my own laziness to exercise. I took a look at old photo and saw a different person than what I am today.

I am changed. 

Changed for the worst.  

Changed in many aspects.

My skin, 

My hair, 

My weight, 

My posture,

My view of life.

My whole mind.

My attitude.

My whole me. Is changed.

I didn't realize how hideous I've become till tonight.