The romantic plan for war...

with his eyes glittering like little boy given a new toy, the king told all his plan to overcome any attack from the masked demon. It was like he can't wait for another mischievous act from the demon. if someone come in with a news about the demon, he would hug that person. I was puzzled, how could the hatred he had for the demon changed into something he's overjoyed with. I almost slapped him silly for those obnoxious remarked on the demon.

The King called me to his study chamber. He looked serious that I was a little bit worried. I put my hand in my robe holding to the knife hid inside the robe. I was ready if out of no where guards came out to slay me. I still put my cool on but with caution. He closed the door behind him and sat on the chair by the window. He was quiet for a while. I don't know what to do. Should I stab him in the back right now and then slip out the chamber quietly to the stable and take the fastest horse and disappear from this kingdom or...should I just wait for a little while. If I ended his life right now, I would be hunted by the prince and the knights. The kingdom will not be weaken but it would be united by this act. All that I have done to destroy this wretched kingdom would be just a waste of time.

I was done with waiting, it was like waiting for death sentence with a big axe ready to chop off my head. I asked him of why did he summoned me to his chamber. He sighed and turned his head toward me. He was uneasy of the silence. He haven't heard any mischief or crime from the Masked demon. He felt like a big storm is coming after the long peace. I was a bit shocked for it. He said it almost like he missed all the commotion and hardship of pursuing the Masked Demon. It was like a girl missing her lover.

Won't die yet.

The good ones die young. I'll have a very long time to live and regret for all the sins.

Regrets

The regrets I have is not about what I did but about what I didn't do.

Born this way.

I blamed the devil for turning me into a demon. I thought that i would be a good samaritan if not for the devil . I thought I was turned demon but I was really a demon sinced born. I always have that intention to do something evil since I can remember. Even before that masacre in the tribe meeting. It was only fear that stopped me then. fear of being caught and punished. I didn't dare to do something out of the usual but always wanted to. the devil didn't turned me evil. it gave me courage. Just a little courage and I became the beast I am today.

Wrong move

Made the wrong move. The King is in suspicion. The General is making an investigation on me. I have no alibi to cover me this time. I need to devise a plan to save me. I'm out of my wit.

lost another round...

No matter how educated I can be..no matter how many experiences I could have...heart wins over head...

the head keep giving all the good excuses and advices on not to do it or do the other things..but when the heart sets into something it wants then nothing can stop it...

like and arrow that has been released..until it hit something or lost it's momentum, it won't stop...

if only I could chain the heart ond locked it in a box...I would be in no harm....everything would be secure...I wont be in the mess i'm in now...

it shows that I'm still human no matter whats my deeds.....

the light inside the knight.

i fought the lovelent prince head on. he seemed to be unbeatable. his love for his country and loyalty to the king made him strong. his purposed on the war was pure and untainted. i put on so many masks but his heart never turn again his king. his king was not the king himself. his king was the people of the country itself. the country was his king and he would do anything to protect the kingdom.

i knew i can't win the war unless i turned the people againts him. that was a lot of effort but it was the only way. it was the most difficult war i ever been in. how could i turned the people againts the knight that had saved them for many times?...

a country without faith...

to destroy a country is to doubt the faith of the citizens toward the rulers...

love is not all pure.

everybody thinks love is pure. love can be lust and that is a weapon to weaken human. yes it is not denied that love can bring so much happiness but beyond those happiness there are many ways to use love as an excuse of evil things. human controlled by their heart can be easily decieved. unless they have the faith, the heart can be very wild on desires.

changes

you'll know the time to change when your current life feels so empty. don't listen to people who says you don't need to change because you are what you are. they are being sellfish. they are comfortable with how you are now and don't want you to change for their benefits. you change when you feel you need to. not because of what people think and told. you know yourself better. so if someone don't like your changes then you just need better companies.care for your own feelings 1st before others...ohh this is not an advice. this is a monologue.

Human and demon...

Every human has demons inside them. The most popular demons are the greed, lust and envy. To conquer and enslaved a human is to play with their demons.