still have hope......

When I was in my prime, The Devil came to me. He showed me what I can do with all the power I have. I had the desire to do all those things before he came but my conscience always saved me from doing all those horrible things. The Devil managed to silence my conscience and took me to another level of evil. My conscience might be silenced but it does effect me a little bit. Till now, I wear masks when I do all those things. It might be because deep down in my heart there's a hope that I would regret doing all the hideous things I did and blend back with the world. I can't do that if they recognised my face. They would hunt me and burn me if they do.

addicted

I'm stubborn that's for sure. I know what I do is wrong but I keep on doing them. Maybe its more to stupidity than ignorance but I can't stop me. I'm addicted to all those things that can destroy me. I don't even feel sane anymore.

life.

fair or not, this is life....

The romantic plan for war...

with his eyes glittering like little boy given a new toy, the king told all his plan to overcome any attack from the masked demon. It was like he can't wait for another mischievous act from the demon. if someone come in with a news about the demon, he would hug that person. I was puzzled, how could the hatred he had for the demon changed into something he's overjoyed with. I almost slapped him silly for those obnoxious remarked on the demon.

The King called me to his study chamber. He looked serious that I was a little bit worried. I put my hand in my robe holding to the knife hid inside the robe. I was ready if out of no where guards came out to slay me. I still put my cool on but with caution. He closed the door behind him and sat on the chair by the window. He was quiet for a while. I don't know what to do. Should I stab him in the back right now and then slip out the chamber quietly to the stable and take the fastest horse and disappear from this kingdom or...should I just wait for a little while. If I ended his life right now, I would be hunted by the prince and the knights. The kingdom will not be weaken but it would be united by this act. All that I have done to destroy this wretched kingdom would be just a waste of time.

I was done with waiting, it was like waiting for death sentence with a big axe ready to chop off my head. I asked him of why did he summoned me to his chamber. He sighed and turned his head toward me. He was uneasy of the silence. He haven't heard any mischief or crime from the Masked demon. He felt like a big storm is coming after the long peace. I was a bit shocked for it. He said it almost like he missed all the commotion and hardship of pursuing the Masked Demon. It was like a girl missing her lover.

Won't die yet.

The good ones die young. I'll have a very long time to live and regret for all the sins.

Regrets

The regrets I have is not about what I did but about what I didn't do.