Got a hello by death...

I welcomed death. I thought that I had enough of life but when death was infront of me... I got scared.

Walk of shame....

And just when I thought I felt nothing.... One of my enemy in the past bit me on the calf. I almost felt down ashamed but I rolled to the left and kicked him on the head. I ran like a coward without looking back. I'm not ready with this kind of trouble yet.

Hollow...

I did another crime. Just a few minutes ago. This time it felt different. There was no pleasure  while doing it and no remorse after. I felt nothing. Hollow.

I need to feel something. I am nothing now. I don't hate and I don't love.

Faith. I need to search for that 'faith' human talks about. I need and want something to believe in. I want to walk in the path my father took.

Agree to disagree

What am I suppose to do when I don't agree with the kingdom I serve?
Should I wage war againts the King or should I hide in the bushes and strike full blow when I have the chance?
I can't rebel just yet, I still have interest in what the kingdom can offer yet in the same time it sicken me to be the ally of all the cruelty to the subject of the kingdom.

Saint

I thought l'm evil but compared to those politician I'm a saint.

Knowledge

Knowlwdge is very important. I always study deeply on something beneficial to me at the time of its usage and I'm proud to say I'm a fast learner too... But that knowledge will only be contained at that particular time when I need it and I'll disregard that knowledge when I'm done with the thing. When I need to use that knowledge again I always forget about it and re-learn it again... Lived too long to remember everything... That's why I made my new resolution to write everything important I did so that I don't need to remember them. My mind would be at peace without all those thing in my mind... Haha

Sleep talk...

I've just notice that most of my siblings, nephews and nieces talk in their sleep... What worry me is that I might not knowing that I talk in my sleep too... I got secrets and this condition worries mem