Regrets

The regrets I have is not about what I did but about what I didn't do.

Born this way.

I blamed the devil for turning me into a demon. I thought that i would be a good samaritan if not for the devil . I thought I was turned demon but I was really a demon sinced born. I always have that intention to do something evil since I can remember. Even before that masacre in the tribe meeting. It was only fear that stopped me then. fear of being caught and punished. I didn't dare to do something out of the usual but always wanted to. the devil didn't turned me evil. it gave me courage. Just a little courage and I became the beast I am today.

Wrong move

Made the wrong move. The King is in suspicion. The General is making an investigation on me. I have no alibi to cover me this time. I need to devise a plan to save me. I'm out of my wit.

lost another round...

No matter how educated I can be..no matter how many experiences I could have...heart wins over head...

the head keep giving all the good excuses and advices on not to do it or do the other things..but when the heart sets into something it wants then nothing can stop it...

like and arrow that has been released..until it hit something or lost it's momentum, it won't stop...

if only I could chain the heart ond locked it in a box...I would be in no harm....everything would be secure...I wont be in the mess i'm in now...

it shows that I'm still human no matter whats my deeds.....

the light inside the knight.

i fought the lovelent prince head on. he seemed to be unbeatable. his love for his country and loyalty to the king made him strong. his purposed on the war was pure and untainted. i put on so many masks but his heart never turn again his king. his king was not the king himself. his king was the people of the country itself. the country was his king and he would do anything to protect the kingdom.

i knew i can't win the war unless i turned the people againts him. that was a lot of effort but it was the only way. it was the most difficult war i ever been in. how could i turned the people againts the knight that had saved them for many times?...

a country without faith...

to destroy a country is to doubt the faith of the citizens toward the rulers...

love is not all pure.

everybody thinks love is pure. love can be lust and that is a weapon to weaken human. yes it is not denied that love can bring so much happiness but beyond those happiness there are many ways to use love as an excuse of evil things. human controlled by their heart can be easily decieved. unless they have the faith, the heart can be very wild on desires.